He saw the dark clouds in the empty sky
The evil within every lie,
He cried and pleaded
For serenity and peace
In the world he longed for,
Humanity at least he needed.
We thrive with vengeful thoughts,
Disregard to nobility,
The lingering spite and hatred,
Never pushed to obscurity.
I wonder how minute subjects,
Carry such intricacy,
A wonderment of beyond,
A wonderment of simplicity..
Living life incognito,
With cover ups for flaws,
Acceptance of the unappreciated,
Remorse of unreasonable brawls.
I've seen opportunities pass by,
Never realizing the potential,
In the need to comfort myself,
delusion with powerful substantial.
reasons to prove my worth,
Had no credibility,
Instead of Seeking refuge on open arms,
I ran towards obtuse mobility.
That last thought of a skeptic,
Is enough for guidance,
When choices were naïve and plain,
I chose complete independence.
A grave mistake, that rigid option,
When seconds were all that were needed,
To ponder what's right and wrong,
Or a repertoire of being misguided.
When I reminisce,
with my choices I now rebel,
Unfortunate jeopardy,
Alas! my life and I now repel.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Thursday, August 6, 2009
The Solicitation To Perception...
~an unforgettable trip
It dissolved after a long debate...ran through my blood…throughout my veins and finally made it to the brain…!Yes !…it acted instantly…fear tumbled down my spine …was it the right choice?.. was it the right quantity?.. what is that I see there??..
Liberated by an unknown source, I was carried way up into the sky and emancipated in a land where no human lived!
I could not understand my trip…fear, dilemma n repentance should’ve targeted me by now…but an idyllic happiness??......
All I saw was a beautiful combination of blue and white…merged in right proportions…! I kept walking straight…n reached a point where I turned and was engulfed with an overwhelming fragrance of what seemed like lilies from a spring morning, an orchard f tulips and orchids in a blend with freedom and serenity!! The horizon looked harmonious with the mild sound of the harp…probably played by a maiden …! I was entranced for a moment… travelling with the mellow tunes of the beautiful lady… I’ve never been in love, never understood its depth, the merit it tags along…it all seemed like an unsolicited blank page of some kind of a religious text! A text that the world believed in …blindly!
It was acting really quick… so many thoughts, so many questions, n answers in abundance…
The cult of ‘love’ always played with emotions… and I believe that emotions always conquer over the present state of mind! And once when the mind is captured... a simple, trivial decision gets a whole lot complicated! And once the complication arises… it can never be erased!
Well… it does not imply that Hatred is the next judicious option… my trip never accepted hatred… ‘love’ can always be diversified to anything you want… its ONLY when the wind blows does the trees announce the swish!
‘love’ has always been a superficial factor in my life… its always been a parasite ravaging for emotions to play with and Alas…it anchors a fragile site! A grip so firm and unyielding that your bound to eternity?!
You’re not the same person anymore…when you look at yourself in the mirror again… your haunted by flaws within yourself…these aren’t your flaws… you never had any… these are the repercussions of your negligence… negligence activated by that phantom who took over your emotions…!!
My trip was gradually sobering… and everything started to make more sense now… the questions found their answers!
I believe that Emotion has always contradicted to reasoning! And as Rene Descartes says “I think…therefore I am”
Now I have a question…
“Can you see yourself in the mirror??!!”…
\m/ Anuj\m/
It dissolved after a long debate...ran through my blood…throughout my veins and finally made it to the brain…!Yes !…it acted instantly…fear tumbled down my spine …was it the right choice?.. was it the right quantity?.. what is that I see there??..
Liberated by an unknown source, I was carried way up into the sky and emancipated in a land where no human lived!
I could not understand my trip…fear, dilemma n repentance should’ve targeted me by now…but an idyllic happiness??......
All I saw was a beautiful combination of blue and white…merged in right proportions…! I kept walking straight…n reached a point where I turned and was engulfed with an overwhelming fragrance of what seemed like lilies from a spring morning, an orchard f tulips and orchids in a blend with freedom and serenity!! The horizon looked harmonious with the mild sound of the harp…probably played by a maiden …! I was entranced for a moment… travelling with the mellow tunes of the beautiful lady… I’ve never been in love, never understood its depth, the merit it tags along…it all seemed like an unsolicited blank page of some kind of a religious text! A text that the world believed in …blindly!
It was acting really quick… so many thoughts, so many questions, n answers in abundance…
The cult of ‘love’ always played with emotions… and I believe that emotions always conquer over the present state of mind! And once when the mind is captured... a simple, trivial decision gets a whole lot complicated! And once the complication arises… it can never be erased!
Well… it does not imply that Hatred is the next judicious option… my trip never accepted hatred… ‘love’ can always be diversified to anything you want… its ONLY when the wind blows does the trees announce the swish!
‘love’ has always been a superficial factor in my life… its always been a parasite ravaging for emotions to play with and Alas…it anchors a fragile site! A grip so firm and unyielding that your bound to eternity?!
You’re not the same person anymore…when you look at yourself in the mirror again… your haunted by flaws within yourself…these aren’t your flaws… you never had any… these are the repercussions of your negligence… negligence activated by that phantom who took over your emotions…!!
My trip was gradually sobering… and everything started to make more sense now… the questions found their answers!
I believe that Emotion has always contradicted to reasoning! And as Rene Descartes says “I think…therefore I am”
Now I have a question…
“Can you see yourself in the mirror??!!”…
\m/ Anuj\m/
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Parable of the infinity...
Walking alone in the dark streets of your mind…a journey through augmented sounds of your footsteps, the whistling of trees, hooting of the owls, the wail of the night mongers! A narrow lane... with narrow tributaries... leading to narrow destinations... of a narrow life!
He wonders why he’s walking… flabbergasted by the situation he is in… he neva signed in for dis…he never made a deal with his commandant…he neva opted for this situation…probably an irrational fear come alive…but little does he know that he is the monarch of his intricacy!!!!
++The mind-body relationship has always been an issue in the history of philosophy, which asks us to consider if the correlation between the physical brain and the mind are identical, partially distinct, or related in some unknown way. Dualism, materialism n idealism being the 3 major schools concerning the mind-body relationship play an active role in the enhancement of 1’s mind in an amoebic form.
He believes that his surrounding, every little object around him affects his scope of reality... his little podium being dominated by some1 else, he realizes that it summons his emotions to the most superior state, a state which coerces his most vicious emotion…! He continues his journey, worried about his handcuffed situation and the never ending road. He looks up in the dark sky… those synthetic stars, those planets n all those heavenly bodies in space calling him over n over again…’A king…a master... we entitle u!...a plea to the dark oceans…be among us… a sailor o a pirate, a sword o the sheath, a ship o a boat, a fish o a whale, a proprietor o a vagabond!!’
He realizes that ‘greed’ and ‘ascendancy’ must b destroyed immediately before he becomes its victim, but he doesn’t do it…….
He accepts it with grace…those 2 emotions r completely insignificant in front of what he is going thru…
Yes! It is true that his idea’s n concepts r withering off being a part of this journey…but his attempt to broaden the narrow lane is something that has ta be appreciated n commended for…!
+Infinity is an endless journey… a path that probably every living soul would walk on…y do we have to tag along n reach the initial position again n again?…broaden it… if ‘ȹ’ o ‘8’ is probably what infinity looks lyk…den stop perpetuating stereotypical images of it n ur lyf!...move on…there’s a lot to explore…a lot to learn…a lot to invent n a lot to lose in order to sleep to the PARABLE OF THE INFINITY!!
He wonders why he’s walking… flabbergasted by the situation he is in… he neva signed in for dis…he never made a deal with his commandant…he neva opted for this situation…probably an irrational fear come alive…but little does he know that he is the monarch of his intricacy!!!!
++The mind-body relationship has always been an issue in the history of philosophy, which asks us to consider if the correlation between the physical brain and the mind are identical, partially distinct, or related in some unknown way. Dualism, materialism n idealism being the 3 major schools concerning the mind-body relationship play an active role in the enhancement of 1’s mind in an amoebic form.
He believes that his surrounding, every little object around him affects his scope of reality... his little podium being dominated by some1 else, he realizes that it summons his emotions to the most superior state, a state which coerces his most vicious emotion…! He continues his journey, worried about his handcuffed situation and the never ending road. He looks up in the dark sky… those synthetic stars, those planets n all those heavenly bodies in space calling him over n over again…’A king…a master... we entitle u!...a plea to the dark oceans…be among us… a sailor o a pirate, a sword o the sheath, a ship o a boat, a fish o a whale, a proprietor o a vagabond!!’
He realizes that ‘greed’ and ‘ascendancy’ must b destroyed immediately before he becomes its victim, but he doesn’t do it…….
He accepts it with grace…those 2 emotions r completely insignificant in front of what he is going thru…
Yes! It is true that his idea’s n concepts r withering off being a part of this journey…but his attempt to broaden the narrow lane is something that has ta be appreciated n commended for…!
+Infinity is an endless journey… a path that probably every living soul would walk on…y do we have to tag along n reach the initial position again n again?…broaden it… if ‘ȹ’ o ‘8’ is probably what infinity looks lyk…den stop perpetuating stereotypical images of it n ur lyf!...move on…there’s a lot to explore…a lot to learn…a lot to invent n a lot to lose in order to sleep to the PARABLE OF THE INFINITY!!
Dream Through Reality...
perception of aspects of one's mind previously unknown...an exuberant experience through different walks of life..hardships...futile concepts f a realm,a dimension,a mind galaxy far far away...yet so close!..reach out..grab it..feel bt don fear the energy..change it..control it...itz all in ur hand,ur mind...manipulate it..fulfill ur desires..mak it a lifetym experience...ohhhh!..itz goin away...itz fadin off..................feel contempt...let it go..set it free..influence ur society...bt don ask fr more!!NEVER ASK FOR MORE!!.... would u ask fr more??
is lucid dreaming & psychedelic experiences da same??
++ Lucid dreaming is a dream in which the sleeper is aware that he is dreaming...a lucid dreamer can manipulate his dream experiences in accordance ta hiz desires...
ur aware dat ur dreamin n wana go on..ur aware dat ur sleepin on a bed bt wana float along..some1 cmes oud f nowhere..u wan him ta go..nd...swooooosh! hez gone!
recognition f ur dream...recalling ur dream r one f the frst steps ta lucid dreaming!..wel yes!..der is a scientific explanation ta lucid dreams..a theory an undrstnding wic pushes it into a less speculative realm..! bt wud u accept it?..wud u wana buy sme shit theory wic wud deny ur happiness..ur satisfaction...???
++ can u accept denial?..do u hav a control over ur emotions?..ur anger...hatred..jealousy..sorrow..love..agony..remorse..zeal..!dey r al pros and cons of ur mind...da games ur mind plays wid...does wad it wants to..a powerful puppeteer..wudn u wan ta destroy itz audacity??..
dats wen u sail into the realm of PSYCHEDELIC EXPERIENCES!!
the concept of psy isnt clr ta ppl yet..deyr misconception = our abolishment!!..
there are no corners to our imagination...enclosed in a massive sphere...a sphere larger than the universe..a diameter wic stops wen ur lyf stops..
wondering y i call it a sphere??...
ur imagination n ideas of illusion grow instantly when ur born..da intial radius of ur life st perception of aspects of one's mind previously unknown...an exuberant experience through different walks of life..hardships...futile concepts f a realm,a dimension,a mind galaxy far far away...yet so close!..reach out..grab it..feel bt don fear the energy..change it..control it...itz all in ur hand,ur mind...manipulate it..fulfill ur desires..mak it a lifetym experience...shit!..itz goin away...itz fadin off..................feel contempt...let it go..set it free..influence ur society...bt don ask fr more!!NEVER ASK FOR MORE!!.... would u ask fr more??
is lucid dreaming & psychedelic experiences da same??
++ Lucid dreaming is a dream in which the sleeper is aware that he is dreaming...a lucid dreamer can manipulate his dream experiences in accordance ta hiz desires...
ur aware dat ur dreamin n wana go on..ur aware dat ur sleepin on a bed bt wana float along..some1 cmes oud f nowhere..u wan him ta go..nd...swooooosh! hez gone!
recognition f ur dream...recalling ur dream r one f the frst steps ta lucid dreaming!..wel yes!..der is a scientific explanation ta lucid dreams..a theory an undrstnding wic pushes it into a less speculative realm..! bt wud u accept it?..wud u wana buy sme shit theory wic wud deny ur happiness..ur satisfaction...???
++ can u accept denial?..do u hav a control over ur emotions?..ur anger...hatred..jealousy..sorrow..love..agony..remorse..zeal..!dey r al pros and cons of ur mind...da games ur mind plays wid...does wad it wants to..a powerful puppeteer..wudn u wan ta destroy itz audacity??..
dats wen u sail into the realm of PSYCHEDELIC EXPERIENCES!!
the concept of psy isnt clr ta ppl yet..deyr misconception = our abolishment!!..
there are no corners to our imagination...enclosed in a massive sphere...a sphere larger than the universe..a diameter wic stops wen ur lyf stops..
wondering y i call it a sphere??...
arts..!year after year..it builds...it extends..through seasons of emotions..creativity..curiosity..imagination..& other influential sources..al dese factors affect ur diameter extension..!!
through these seasons..u go thru certain unexplainable..unimaginable thoughts...probably a feelin of pre-occupied experiences..things u probably wud hav experienced before..~DEJA VU?!!...dese r da parts f ur life wic play 50% - 50%...coz DIAMETER= 2 times ur life RADIUS!!
experience a world beyond the scope of ur imagination...coz u wudn noe wen ur RADIUS WUD STOP!!!
TrAnQuIlItY ReDeFiNeD \m/
\m/anuj\m/
Abstract fear of life....
ANGUISH...anguish by a sense of guilt,
YEARN..with a sense of agony,
CHANGES...sailin away aimlessly...things you want to change..moves away from u...keeps u far apart...& YET! fathom & fathom through loops of life..takes you...without acknowledging ones's desires...that meagre anticipation…that eagerness…those intense seconds ,where you know..life could change like drops of drops f rain..transform into a pearl on a tongue…o splatter of on a sill…!!!
That fear …which alone leads u ahead…HEALS u…guides u…& YET…considered feeble …a weakness…a dislodged image…in : society, among your people…your enemies….ur FRIEND---who at one point of time …were assets…part of ur life but little did u know u wer carried through a stimulated life..an influenced 1…meanders- cutting u off frm ur main course…pathways-that twirl around…and YET!...””helpful??””-sometimes a medly of doubt…dependence…faith…HOPE!!
U ought to feel…the pain…the love…the sorrow…the FEAR…the very existence of urslf…ur possession…ur obsession…ur prime source of…EVERYTHING!!
Consider this ma memoir…a dirge…an experience through 2 phases of ma life & still caught up in a distend dilemma…paradox situations…undecided…unawaited… & YET!...carries me into the depth of my REMORSE!!!!!
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