Abstract fear of life....

ANGUISH...anguish by a sense of guilt,
YEARN..with a sense of agony,
CHANGES...sailin away aimlessly...things you want to change..moves away from u...keeps u far apart...& YET! fathom & fathom through loops of life..takes you...without acknowledging ones's desires...that meagre anticipation…that eagerness…those intense seconds ,where you know..life could change like drops of drops f rain..transform into a pearl on a tongue…o splatter of on a sill…!!!
That fear …which alone leads u ahead…HEALS u…guides u…& YET…considered feeble …a weakness…a dislodged image…in : society, among your people…your enemies….ur FRIEND---who at one point of time …were assets…part of ur life but little did u know u wer carried through a stimulated life..an influenced 1…meanders- cutting u off frm ur main course…pathways-that twirl around…and YET!...””helpful??””-sometimes a medly of doubt…dependence…faith…HOPE!!

U ought to feel…the pain…the love…the sorrow…the FEAR…the very existence of urslf…ur possession…ur obsession…ur prime source of…EVERYTHING!!

Consider this ma memoir…a dirge…an experience through 2 phases of ma life & still caught up in a distend dilemma…paradox situations…undecided…unawaited… & YET!...carries me into the depth of my REMORSE!!!!!